8 February 2007

Well, that was fucking useless.

Filed under: Health, Rants and Angst @ 10:28 pm

I finally went to the local mental health institution for what I thought would be an appointment with a psychiatrist.

First of all, the place is damn near impossible to find. I had to call and ask for directions.

The entire building is decorated in that ever-so-wonderful ‘government chic’ style; cinderblock walls, plain white everything, nasty plastic chairs… think of the worst DMV you’ve ever had to visit, and you’ll know what this place was like. (It’s odd, since this is a private clinic.) And the noise was unbearable. Some part of their climate control was rumbling, with the rumble pulsating every few seconds, just enough to make sure you can’t tune it out.

My appointment was at 2PM. I arrived at 2:05 or so, because I got lost on the way there. After waiting in line for ten minutes, I was given a checklist of symptoms and had to give them my ‘insurance’ card and ID. There were approximately 50 symptoms listed, and I have about half. (I could even recognize which problems they were looking for: one group was for depression, one was for mania, one was for anxiety, one was for addiction, etc.)

They finally called my name at 2:45 or so. I was taken into a back room and the ‘counselor’ asked me a few questions. At some point, I happened to mention that I was an atheist. This led to a fifteen minute long religious browbeating. I just did what I always do and zoned out; it’s not worth arguing, because nobody listens to reason.

Anyway, what really pissed me off was when I told that not only would I not be seeing a psychiatrist today, I wouldn’t even get to see one on my next visit. Apparently, they can’t just listen to the other counselors (and psychiatrists) I’ve dealt with; they have to do their own ‘diagnosis’. (You know, when they hear “I’ve tried to commit suicide”, how the fuck do they come up with a ‘diagnosis’ other than depression?)

My next appointment is in two weeks, at 10:30 AM (when my work doesn’t start until 5:30 PM). So, it’ll be at least a month before I actually get to talk to somebody who can actually help me. Until then I have to deal with the idiots and the religious freaks.

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Comment posted by imWACC0 at 11:49 pm on 8 February 2007:

I know this is not going to be much help.
If I read your coordinates right your in FL, The Home of Bible Humpers. So, as far as the religious nuts go, I feel sorry for ya.

Other than that, talk with people from UF, or anyone that has “been there”. It’s real easy to make snide remarks if you don’t have the problem.

Comment posted by bi at 2:11 am on 19 February 2007:

“they have to do their own ‘diagnosis’.”

Makes me wonder if their “diagnosis” will be something along the lines “lack of religious belief, specifically Christian belief”.

Comment posted by Anonymous at 4:33 am on 20 February 2007:

I had something kinda similar happen to me. Seems that when you need psychiatric help your pcp’s don’t really know any to refer you too. Or they don’t understand the hospital system. Here in upstate NY I went to the emergency psych dept because of having major beyond believe maddening waves of panic attacks. Well in the end they ask me if I was OK to go home or would I like to spend the night. Feeling better and unsure of staying I left with further instructions to meet a counselor who is what I met in the emergency room that night. This counselor was suppose to set me up with a psychiatrist at least that was what I was told in the emergency room. Sounded good till I decided to call them up a few days later. I wanted to know how this so called system worked. It seems that hospitals don’t refer you to psychiatrists even if you ask for one anymore up here. I personally think its because of the HMO’s and the cheapest way to provide half ass service. What they do instead is PCEP (comprehensive psychiatric emergency program). This is what they called their mental health help. They expect you to see a counselor;aka therapist; not a psychologist or aka. what could be known as a social worker. Your suppose to meet them instead of a psychiatrist for 40- 50 minutes and every 4th session or so you get to see the psychiatrist for 15 minutes so he can write out the medication for whatever they passed on to him they think you have. Not a very comforting thought if you think of it; the Psychiatrist is hearing it 2nd hand and you know communication through the grape vine can get twisted up. Counselors or social workers are not exactly the best trained; and in my humble opinion is risky as hell, so I dropped out that situation and am searching for a private psychiatrist. Just to let you know that night in the emergency room I did finally break down and cried cause I was on the crash side of my panic attack and the strain on those who cared for me was allot never mind how wiped out I felt. I felt guilty I was so much trouble hated myself for not being able to control it and of course before I left I was offered anti-depressants cause I shed a tear. Sorry that’s scary If you think about it. I hope I can find a competent caring psychiatrist soon as I feel like I’m going to have a mental break down but it takes like a month for just an appointment. I had one for about 5 minutes. Just so happened our first ice storm and snow fell the night before. I spent 45 minutes chopping off ice on my car to get in it. I was 6 minutes late and I quote ” I thought you weren’t coming” she had some other people who seemed to just walk in off the street and gave them my 3 week wait appointment. Now she was just starting out too; this was here first on her own practice but she had worked for years in a practice.But hell you can’t tell me she was that desperate for patients. I too looked around and the office was 2 school chairs and a plain desk. One for her to sit in the other for the patient. She had 4 more school cafeteria type chairs in the waiting room and what was a school cafeteria table to fill out forms. No decorations solid white walls and a flimsy cheap kick me down door. I’m glad I left that too. You can’t tell me that a doctor has no money whatsoever to paint or even buy half way decent furniture. Please she also did an on the fly diagnosis which did not sit with me well considering she just met me for five minutes and then was rushing me out for her patients. This was a mind mess I was so angry when I left. So now I have an appointment with a foreigner ; you can hear the accent. I worry he will not understand American culture because he was not raised here also he speaks Arabic. I’m trying to think happy thoughts about it all but what if his Islamic. That would be o.k just hope he’s not the radical fanatical type who thinks everyone who’s not Islamic needs to die. Oh well this may sound funny but geez I tried for a plain old American psychiatrist and either they don’t want to deal with what I have or they “are not accepting any new patients”. I hate hearing this and its so common. I hope this psychiatrist is decent and understanding and good otherwise I will have to spend more time searching in the meanwhile I’m falling apart. So I Medicate myself and medicate more sometimes. If only hospitals could set you up with psychiatrists its a disgrace. They do it for other ailments there really is no difference. And if a patient requests it you think they could be more helpful and suggests a few.

Comment posted by Dsw Shoes at 6:08 pm on 21 February 2007:

This is bad. Hope you find a better psychiatrist.

Comment posted by Danielle at 2:43 am on 24 March 2007:

Ben, what ended up happening at the next appointment?

Comment posted by Michael Kors at 6:28 am on 24 March 2007:

Yup, an update will be good Ben.

Comment posted by Danielle at 1:30 am on 31 March 2007:

Come on, do update us!

Comment posted by Benjamin Geiger at 2:25 am on 31 March 2007:

Fine, fine. Clicky.

Comment posted by Rising Above Mediocrity at 2:26 am on 31 March 2007:

Further misadventures in bureaucracy….

After my rather disappointing experience at Peace River last time, I didn’t have much hope for the next visit. In a sense, that lack of hope was somewhat warranted, though this visit was much better than the first visit. After a relatively shor…

Comment posted by anon at 2:35 am on 28 July 2007:

Psychiatrists are people who know nothing about people, and who spread their myths convincingly.

Comment posted by John at 1:00 am on 23 November 2007:

Hope you find a better psychiatrist.

Comment posted by Bobby Capps at 6:58 pm on 21 January 2008:

I hope you’ve been able to a good psychiatryst and therapist. And that they get you the correct meds.

Comment posted by Car Insurance Assist at 2:09 am on 17 April 2008:

Hope that you are getting well.

Comment posted by Asia'h Epperson at 9:19 pm on 17 April 2008:

Don’t worry to much, my friend. Life still goes on.

Comment posted by oyun indir at 11:34 am on 30 June 2008:

This is bad. Hope you find a better psychiatrist.

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